Happiness vs. "Luckyness"

I always see tons of people lining up in lotto. Before lotto, sweepstakes. I'm sure in the early times, even not being eaten by animals was some sort of luck :) Before I used to aspire to be lucky too. Long before people started calling me Jinks or Jinx as a shortcut to my nickname (as opposed to Jean Carmelle or even Jean Carmello as my old teacher called me) I thought I would create a blog that would contradict the sound of my name, and the opposite quality/characteristic which I long for. And so, Lucky Jinks was born.  Incidentally, Vilma Santos (who is a dead ringer for my singer mom or looks like her when she sings) also named her son Lucky and to which he is now the talented host that he is, is quite a good coincidence.

Yes, we all aspire to be lucky at some point in our lives. The luckiest thing that ever happened to me in terms of raffles was winning a cassette recorder at the onset of CD players. I also won a 30 minute free internet use in college. Back then, I could only email so 30 minutes was quite long. I was also lucky in terms of not getting along with former office bosses to find out what my true calling us. Most of all, I am a very lucky mom to a bright, love of my life.

That being said, I've had my share of not so lucky moments. Workwise, lovewise. I made certain decisions which mad me think that what I am today is a result of those. So I have no regrets.

But the thing is, I think that I do not aspire to be lucky anymore.  Maybe at some point, I would like to think that people who get to know me are the lucky ones hehehehe. That watching "The Lucky One" will not make me cringe with regret or jealousy. Or eating "Lucky Me" noodles will not be a staple because its bad for me. Maybe in some way, I do not wish to win the lotto anymore. I already have that with my life, with my circle of friends.

I think in some way, I am now HAPPY and that in itself is better than any form of LUCKY. Of course I still believe in my heart that my luck will always be in my own hands. That my life is now as lucky as it could get and I am truly happy.